Rick was very disappointed when he came home to pick me up for our date and found that I had tamed the beast that is my hair.
But it had to be done.
Because, as I always tell my kids when they say I should just let my hair be its natural wild self, “I grew up in the 80s which means I can’t still be walking around with 80s hair. I’d look like I don’t embrace change.”
And I want to always embrace change. Fully embrace it.
But sometimes I wonder if I really do.
Many years ago I first heard the question, “How much money do you spend to impress other people?” To which I immediately answered, “None. I don’t care what other people think.”
But I had to call my bluff when–after contemplating further–I realized that if I were leaving to live alone on an island, aside from life sustaining items and a crate or two of books, I could leave most of what I currently own behind.
“Make friends with change.” ~~Ram Dass
It turns out–if I’m being truly honest–I spend quite a bit of money trying to fit in with social norms. I wonder if I do the same with change. I wonder if I sometimes resist change in fear of the judgements of others.
“Here’s the deal. People are judging you every second of the day. That can be an excuse for you to hide, not live fully, speak up, and follow your heart, or it can just be an objective fact and you can go on living your one wild and precious life, freely, unabashedly, gratefully, with a wink and a messy haired smile.” ~~Angela Meyer
I read this quote this morning and my mind broke out into cartwheels. Cart-Wheels! The idea that everyone is always judging me–whether it’s true or not–was strangely liberating. “They’re judging me anyway.” I told myself. “No matter what I do. Which means I can DO WHATEVER I WANT!”
And what I want is change.
Yep, change and me are fixin’ to become the very best of friends.